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playing guitar hero is the bomb.

I have absolutly nothing left.
i'm jobless for the past 3 months ...
i can't find a new one... no one want's me...

i have no money.
no camera....
not even money to buy film or develop them ...

i have a place to pay for right now.... bills and rent everything....
and on top of all that i am no longer speaking to mother becuse she called me a mistake infront of my friend... and as usual acted like a mean person to me... what was very insulting with all of my mental state latly...

i can't even get happy from the songs that made me feel the best....

i do not know what to do no more ...
i'm at my lowest ...
i no longer eat or sleep... becuse i am to worried and troubled and have no money to do so...

life can be so wierd sometimes ....
when the hell will i go up ?

So i came back from barcelona a few days ago,
It was so much fun, and i can't wait to go back again.

I am no longr working, And now i am Sitting at home and i need to look for a new one, if anyone has a lead for me just lt me know.

I got a new place now, moved in less then a month ago.

And i am going to be 21 in a few days, 3 to be exact.

Spooky days,
And i'm bored !!!!

I need to get something sent by mail to someone who lives in spain
barcelona mainly...

dose anyone has a lead for me ? !

So.. this is how it goes.

About three or four weeks ago,
the woman who lives next to us attaked my mom.
(I was, and still in tottal shock out of this.)

My mom has decided that she my brother and I, do not need to live in this invirement.
wich is funny, as for we live there for the past 13 years.
And this couldent have come in a worse time.

I recently found a job, and been working all day, and after i finsh work, I work in another job, handing out flyers most of the night.
So packing my entiher room dose not come so easly at a time like this.
And to top it all, i sure do not want to handel this now.

My mom decided that she is moving to my unkels house,
wich is a tiny little appertment who can't really fit my mom brother unkel and I.
So my mom told me that i'll need to find a place to stay in for two months,
wich won't be such a big problem, but still is frustrating as hell.
As for i do not want to find out who are my real friends at a time like this, when i'm going throgh a hard time.

So now, Joyage is homeless, and sleeping at friends houses,
and carying few shirts and underwear with her in her tiny bag.

And now to the sad part,
Up until now, i'm missing about 200 dollers and someone to get me my camera from new york.
But it's looks like i'm going to need to take all that money that i have saved for so long for the one thing i have wanted more then anything, to finnely have a camera again, And to take it all out on renting a place of my own.
Wich pretty much suck becuse i have been expecting to get that camera so much...

Well...
i guess that's just my luck latly.
to lose everything i have.

Wish me luck.